CRUSH...

(memoire du passe....)

I like his eyes, his smile is made more dramatic, more sincere, more heartwarming when he smiles with his eyes...

I like the way he crinkles his nose...it makes him all the more cute...

He is into what I'm into - physics, etc - I mean, sweats a little profusely when it's hot, just like me...so I guess that we'll both be comfortable in an air-conditioned environment...comfy huh?

Physical contact? yes, our knees had physical contact when we were cramped in the bus on field trip day during one summer camp in my distant past...

Stranger though he is, he keeps appearing within the vicinity where I am...or maybe it just seems so now that I'm paying a closer look at him...

Oh but he's vain! He's got more ear studs than me. It does not matter though...not really a big deal...besides it makes him more good-looking...

He likes taking pictures, and might be good at it! His DSLR tells me so...[i'm glad that I was one of his objects of focus once in his and my life...]

And yes, we were together on the special corner for photographers at the church...we were interested in the same glass window display...

And the brows! So full of feelings - like you'd love to see those in action:

sad when you leave...

happy when he laughs...

remorseful when expressing apologies...

worried when confused...

Parting time...end of summer camp...

I thought he left ahead of all the other campers...and I gave up.

T'was almost the end anyway and I accepted that maybe, the next time's next year....

But whoala! What a great joy! He was there when I was about to leave for my flight...

He was the last person I saw before I finally bid farewell to the campsite...and maybe the last to see me too...SAD...

Bye, Kim...until we meet again...

HAPPINESS!

Fyodor Dostoevsky is known for saying that:

"Man is fond of counting his trouble, but he does not count his joys. If he counted them up as he ought to, he would see that every lot has enough happiness provided for it.

Kuya Antet and Alien Mie

It is true that if one wants to be happy, he has to pursue it. But we are sometimes too focused on seeking happiness, or trying to be happy, that we fail to notice little moments of glee and joy. Happiness is not as elusive as we regard it to be. All that we have to do is to stop thinking whether we are happy.

Here's a list of my happy-ness...moments when i could feel the glow and everything around appears like a kaleidoscope world...moments of my being a walking ray of sunshine! Read on and maybe, we share the same happy-ness, you just failed to notice when... (err..)

Happiness is...

...when i am able to instantly sing my favorite song even if i have long forgotten its lyrics
(Pretty Boy by M2M is one of 'em)...

...when i touch a soul even if we are worlds apart
(text messaging with heart-warming thoughts and xoxos surely does the job)...

...when i feast on my favorite ice cream even if it is not so good for my health
(i love toffee, coffee crumble and choco hazelnut brownie!)...

...when i laugh out loud while watching feel-good movies even if others find it corny
(most especially Harry who is a patron of serious, historical, documentary films, ugh!)...

...when i feel secured of friends' tender loving care even if they are most of the time nowhere to be found
(calling on the super invisible Giorg)...

...when i munch on chinese food in a chinese restaurant even if i deny being a Chinese
(it is really just my family name that's chinese...the chinese-ness in the clan has been gone so long ago with my grandfather ;)...

...when i bond with the whole family even if it is short-lived
(we are just five and our house is not-so-big but circumstances just do not always allow constant togetherness, ouch!)...

...when i receive the fruit of my labor even if it can never be enough
(there's joy in being thankful with little things)...

...when i play with toddlers and succeeds at making them laugh and cry or at not giving into them even if they beg me to death
(haha! cruel! i love playing catch-me-if-you -can with them)...

...when i enjoy the sunshine even if i know that it will burn me badly
(especially so if it involves building a house for strangers, or giving relief goods to evacuees or running for a cause)...

...when i float facing a clear blue sky...when i hear mass and i cry...

...when i get a hug and a kiss...oh, such a moment of bliss!

As of now, i am still watching out for more happy-ness moments...i am hopeful but not so expectant...what could be more than the daily dose of rays of sunshine? :-)

For the mean time, please check out this link for some helpful happiness tips! Have fun!