WALANG MALAY

KWENTO

Inaalagaan naman nila akong mabuti. Subalit kailangan kong mamuhay kasama ang tunay kong pamilya. Di na magtatagal ang buhay ng Lolo ko, at wala siyang mapag-iiwanan ng mga naipundar niya. Nag-iisang anak niya ang tunay kong ama na nag-paalam sa mundo dahil sa kalungkutan at sama ng loob - di niya kinaya ang maagang pagkawala ng tunay kong ina. Kung tutuusin, ang padating ko sa mundo ang naging mitsa ng lahat. Kaya kahit mawawalay ako sa pamilyang minahal ko at nagmahal sa akin nang tunay, kakayanin ko. Di naman ako talagang lalayo. Batid kong mahaba pa ang panahong nakalaan para magsama-sama kaming muli.

Minsan ako'y tulala at parang naililigaw

Di mawari kung tulog, o namumuhay sa balintataw

Diwa ko'y nais marating ang di-abot ng tanaw

Mabuti na lang at may realidad na sa akin ay pumupukaw!

IMAHINASYON

Napakaraming tao! At napakahalaga ng selebrasyon. Di man ako ang natatanging tauhan, ayos lang. Dati ko pa alam na ako'y natatangi, kakaiba, may natatagong kapangyarihan. Habang ang lahat ay abala sa pakikinig at pakikiisa, biglang mangyayari ang di ko inaasahan. Wala na. Ito na yun. Di ko na maililihim pa ang tunay kong katangian. Oo, di ako galing sa planetang ito. Biglang aangat sa ere ang hiram kong katawan. Malfunction. Ito ang tawag sa ganitong sitwasyon. Huli na para pindutin pa ang emergency button. Iisipin ng maraming tao na naging kasalamuha ko, "kaya pala siya kakaiba, ngayon, malinaw na ang lahat."

 

Malikot, mapaglaro, kapagdaka'y mapagbiro

Mga nakatagong pagtatangi dahilan ng pagkatuliro

Walang pagsidlan mga tanong na sa isip ay pumupuno

Sa pagmulat ng mata'y damang-dama ang pagkabigo.

PANAGINIP

Matagal ko na siyang di nakikita, di nakakausap. Ngunit di maitatanggi na isa siyang mahalagang bahagi ng buhay ko. Sabay naming sinubok ang tadhana noon. Naging matagumpay kami, subalit ang aming Pagtatapos ay naging hudyat ng paghihiwalay. Kanya-kanya ng buhay. Masyado kong ininda ang pagkawala niya. Pero isipin ko man o hindi, nagpaparamdam pa rin siya - siguro sa mga panahong may pagkakataong mababanggit siya, o mapag-uusapan ng mga taong naging bahagi din ng aming nakaraan. Nakakatuwa lang na sa panaginip ko siya nakakasama, at dun lang, doon ko lang nababalitaan ang mga nangyayari sa kanya. Iwinaksi ko na ang mga ala-ala ng dating buhay upang pilit siyang makalimutan. Pero di ng siguro madaling tanggalin sa sistema ang napakahalagang pinagsamahan. Paano na? Hanggang panaginip na lang ba ang pagkakaibigang iningatan?

Kathang-isip lamang ba, o may bahid ng katotohanan,

Mga pangyayaring sumasagi, minsa'y gumugulo sa isipan?

Bakit naman kasi sa dami ng maaaring mapanaginipan,

Yun at yun din ang nasusumpungan?

 

Sadya atang tadhana ang sa atin ay lumilinang

Nakapikit man ang mata'y di siya malilinlang

Lalabas at lalabas ang kulay, damdamin mong tunay

Buhay ka man, patay, o walang malay.

(akda para kay Ito)

Iisang Lugar, Magkaibang Panahon: Panaginip? Imahinasyon?

A NUMBERED EXISTENCE

(c) Google Inc.

47.14

8:30

47%

5000

8, 13, 4, 25, 17, 2
35

If you are to optimize the browser that is my mind, these will be the most current entries that you will see. I may not always consider my thoughts but most actions and preferences I have made through my daily existence revolved around numbers. Let us set aside technicalities and leave the math behind. I do not even have to pause for moments of reflection to realize how relevant numbers are. Truth is, though I may not always count, my conscious efforts are almost always quantified. 

I did not have to know how many pounds I was when I first appeared in public, but I am semi-conscious of the pounds I gain when I fail to control intake and burn the excess calories through exercise.

I can only dream about getting taller, but I do not let my height of 5 feet hinder me from enjoying 7-feet deep swims.

I do not watch out for updates on the national life expectancy rate, or my BP, or my pulse rate, but I am always on the lookout for the number of hours I spend for the oftentimes-hard-to-come-by luxurious sleep.

I know if I am spending too much but I do not count the cost of something for someone;  beware though because I can get furious (hmm...) over a peso unjustly and unfairly taken away from me.

I may have lived out "quality over quantity" in the process of acquisition but I always seek for more economical alternatives.

I do not have to measure the distance between home and the office but I sure know how much time I need to allot for the travel to avoid losing precious gold.

I know I am aged but I am not concerned. I can still laugh out loud like a kid so I am sure I am fine.

So what exactly are those (^) precious digits doing in my brain? Let's see...

47.14 is the number of minutes it took me to finish the race I recently joined in, positive as it is smaller (shorter) than the time it took me to do the same task last time ...

8:30 is the current time for duty calls, positive as it gives me a traffic-less pathway and protects me from the harmful UV rays come closing time..

47% is the new target for the biggest chunk of the performance score card, negative as it is waaaay higher than the previous metric targets...

5000 refers to the number of one-peso coins I have to keep in the bank for the realization of a life-long project, positive as it is a source of motivation...

8, 13, 4, 25, 17, 26 are my winning lottery numbers. Not! Haha! These are my favorite numbers. 8 is deemed a lucky number because writing it would always end up in an upward stroke; 13 is a lonely, superstitiously considered unlucky number making it an awesome choice; 4 is the opposite of thirteen because it indicates company; 25 is Majesty's magic number; 17 is the first two-digit prime number (aside from eleven and thirteen which are less lonely - eleven having ones in pair, thirteen having a history of its own plus single digits are naturally proud because they can stand alone); and 26 is a very special number and, reader, you should know why :D

35 is the number of 24-hour periods I have to spend before ending a year-long project and embarking on a new, exciting, challenging and risk-laden project away from home sweet home.

Generally, I have to allot time (whether I like it or not) to check on prices to pay, to consider a number of rules to keep in mind and heart and to deal with various tags, digits, and numbers to continue experiencing a smooth-sailing journey that is life.

Yes, there is more to numbers than their unique forms and figures and the amount, count or quantity associated with them. Presents, friends, check marks on the to-do or bucket list, earnings, work experience - numbers of which give us joy, or sadness, but meaning nonetheless. Here are some more evidences of the meaningful-ness of numbers. I hope they will encourage you more to make sure that it's not the years in your life that should count but the life in your years as Abraham Lincoln has put it. Read on for some more food for thought ;-)

I think prime numbers are like life. They are very logical but you could never work out the rules, even if you spend all your time thinking about them. 

~ Mark Haddon

The hardest arithmetic to master is that which enables us to count our blessings. 

~ Eric Hoffer, Reflections On The Human Condition

Although he may not always recognize his bondage, modern man lives under a tyranny of numbers. 

~ Nicholas Eberstadt, The Tyranny of Numbers: Mismeasurement and Misrule 

I know that two and two make four - and should be glad to prove it too if I could - though I must say if by any sort of process I could convert 2 and 2 into Five, it would give me much greater pleasure.

~ George Gordon, Lord Byron

God does not care about our mathematical difficulties; He integrates empirically.

~ Albert Einstein

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