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Monday, March 16, 2009

HAPPINESS!



Fyodor Dostoevsky is known for saying that:

"Man is fond of counting his trouble, but he does not count his joys. If he counted them up as he ought to, he would see that every lot has enough happiness provided for it.

Kuya Antet and Alien Mie

It is true that if one wants to be happy, he has to pursue it. But we are sometimes too focused on seeking happiness, or trying to be happy, that we fail to notice little moments of glee and joy.
Happiness is not as elusive as we regard it to be. All that we have to do is to stop thinking whether we are happy.

Here's a list of my happy-ness...moments when i could feel the glow and everything around appears like a kaleidoscope world...moments of my being a walking ray of sunshine! Read on and maybe, we share the same happy-ness, you just failed to notice when... (err..)

Happiness is...

...when i am able to instantly sing my favorite song even if i have long forgotten its lyrics
(Pretty Boy by M2M is one of 'em)...


...when i touch a soul even if we are worlds apart
(text messaging with heart-warming thoughts and xoxos surely does the job)...


...when i feast on my favorite ice cream even if it is not so good for my health
(i love toffee, coffee crumble and choco hazelnut brownie!)...


...when i laugh out loud while watching feel-good movies even if others find it corny
(most especially Harry who is a patron of serious, historical, documentary films, ugh!)...


...when i feel secured of friends' tender loving care even if they are most of the time nowhere to be found
(calling on the super invisible Giorg)...


...when i munch on chinese food in a chinese restaurant even if i deny being a Chinese
(it is really just my family name that's chinese...the chinese-ness in the clan has been gone so long ago with my grandfather ;)...


...when i bond with the whole family even if it is short-lived
(we are just five and our house is not-so-big but circumstances just do not always allow constant togetherness, ouch!)...


...when i receive the fruit of my labor even if it can never be enough
(there's joy in being thankful with little things)...


...when i play with toddlers and succeeds at making them laugh and cry or at not giving into them even if they beg me to death
(haha! cruel! i love playing catch-me-if-you -can with them)...


...when i enjoy the sunshine even if i know that it will burn me badly
(especially so if it involves building a house for strang
ers, or giving relief goods to evacuees or running for a cause)...

...when i float facing a clear blue sky...when i hear mass and i cry...

...when i get a hug and a kiss...oh, such a moment of bliss!


As of now, i am still watching out for more happy-ness moments...i am hopeful but not so expectant...what could be more than the daily dose of rays of sunshine? :-)

For the mean time, please check out this link for some helpful happiness tips! Have fun!


Saturday, March 14, 2009

PANULAT...

Kapag nag-isip kaya ako sa buong magdamag, papayat kaya ako? ang dami kasing laman ng isip ko, yung tipong mahirap makatulog nang mahimbing.. Hmm, masubukan nga.



May iniisip na nakaraan, meron ding panghinaharap. May binabalikang masaya, may iniiwasang pangit na alaala. Minsan, pati panaginip sumasagi pa din sa isipan. Ganun ba talaga? Siguro kung hindi ako tamad, at kung hindi ako nagpapadaig sa ADHD ko pagdating sa pagpokus sa sarili kong karera sa pagsusulat ay marami na tiyak akong naikuwento tungkol sa buhay ko at sa mga naiisip ko, kahit pa wala din naman makakabasa at makakarinig kundi ako. Marahil ay malalalim na din ngayon ang mga curves* sa utak ko. Ano nga ba ang tawag dun? Di ko na maalala. Ay, siguro hindi ganun kalalim kasi makakalimutin na ako eh. Pero sabi ng iba, ang galing ko daw magsaulo. May espesyal na turing pa nga sila sa memoryang yun - photographic memory. Hay, ewan. TskTskTsk! Matanda na talaga. Kung may pormula lang sana sa di pagtulog, malamang kinabisa ko na ang paglaban sa antok.

May naibahagi na akong kaisipan una dito. Subalit dahil sa mga pagbabagong nangyari ay hindi ko nai-save ito. Anaki's marami akong kaisipang nais isalaysay subalit hindi sa lahat ng pagkakataon ay may kakayahan akong magbahagi. Nakakalungkot isipin na bibihira na nga lang dumating ang mga pagkakataong ganito, di ko pa rin mabigyang-pansin. Marahil, tamang may oras para sa lahat. Ngunit nananaig pa rin ang katotohanang di lahat ay may pantay-pantay na kakayahan, karapatan o dili kaya'y kapangyarihan.

Madami akong mga katanungan...pero di naman lahat ay nangangailangan ng kasagutan...tanong lang. Iyong mga tipong pwedeng pag-isipan habang may inaantay na kung ano man. Mga tanong na kagaya ng:

1. Tatangkad pa ba kaya ako?
2. May nagawa ba akong mabuti ngayon?
3. May nahawaan ba ako ng kapangyarihan?
4. at iba pa...

Parang ewan, minsan nakakaakit tuloy tumanda.
Para nakatingin ka na lang sa kawalan.
Para mag-isip-isip na lang.

Para magmasid na lang.
Para magbalik-tanaw na lang habang nag-aantay ng takdang panahon ng paglisan.
 Sana ganun na lang kadali...sana...
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